I haven't put anything up as I really wanted to, still not used to it but I would eventually. Anyways I had a good enough weekend, i had fun and it made me realize things. I hung out with a few of my friends, my best friend and others. And I think I have fallen in "like" with a guy. Like I liked him before but from Saturday night, I'm more determined to get with him more than ever. He's been there for me and he's been treating me like how I want a guy to treat me. It's hard though because he really doesn't want a relationship and I don't blame him. I'm sure what he's doing to me I guess he doesn't realize it means a lot to me. I'm really not used to this, and I guess its nothing to him. I wish I can let him know without him feeling like its too much and I'm catching feelings, and unfortunately I have but at the same time, I don't want to drive him away. I like to hang out though and maybe one day I can get my Chance. Having only been in one relationship in your entire life, stuff like this seem so hard and you just have these weird emotions and fantasies of what you want. And being the type of person I am that don't ask for a lot and appreciate things, its like the little things count a lot. He doesn't have to take me out and buy me things and give me everything I want because I want him to, that's not what I'm asking for. But if he does it because he wants to, then it's a bonus. I really feel for this one I am that potential to be what he's always wanted but afraid to look for because of the past. But we'll see in the future I guess.
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